Ok, so I really don't think there were any lines drawn in the sands of Tatooine. Grant it, I've only made it through 3 1/2 of the 6 Star Wars movies...so at some point there may be some important lines drawn in the sand. But for now..it just sounded like an awesome title. You know me...anything for a good title!
Anyways, on to the topic of discussion. Yes, "discussion" meaning I want you all to talk about this..preferably in "comments"...lots of comments makes me feel special lol. So yes, ok, in a relationship...where do you draw the line between "learning from prior experiences" and the almighty "baggage"? This one is always tough for me, because there is no clear answer...the problem is we're dealing with human beings...and emotions...and feelings. There are no rational or concrete answers for any of those!
Take tonight for example.
1. I see something on boys computer
2. In true Lyndsay fashion...I just kinda shut the hell up
3. I end up leaving early
4. I call boy. He says there is nothing to worry about..confirms my suspicions of me "freaking out a bit"
5. Well I just feel retarded.
And that has happened a few times before (not with above mentioned boy), and I'm always at a loss as to how to feel. I do much better with things that have concrete answers. Everything about myself is concrete...even my spontaneity...after a while, the things I do shouldn't surprise you in the "I never expected Lyndsay to do that" way..unless you're retarded. Just because you're shocked at the action, doesn't mean you have to be shocked at the motivation. So anyways, things have gone both ways for me in the above mentioned situation before. I've either been wrong..or I've been right. There is definitely a certain amount of trust involved...but even then, you're still trusting someone you don't know as well as yourself, because they obviously aren't you! Unless you're reading this and have multiple personality disorder...then the last sentence doesn't apply...sorry. Things obviously worked out...above mentioned boy (amb for short) is pretty understanding..for what reason I'll never know lol. But I just wish I could figure this out. It's bugging me..and I hate having to think.
So dear readers, (which very well could be just me)...where do you draw that line? Or do you? Drawing it just seems to be an issue of location...not doing it at all seems retarded.....is there somewhere in between? Dashes perhaps?
Well, are there?
Alright class...word of the day is "Retarded". I've used it 4x so far in this blog...and it's how I'm feeling :)
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